Artistic Freedom

It occurs to me the following: It shouldn’t matter WHAT you believe in. But rather that you believe in something.

What do people who believe in nothing have?

When you believe in something, you have hope, you have a strong set of defined morals. Is this not something to be supported? Should we split hairs on WHAT people believe in rather than celebrate the fact they believe in something at all?

With people out there telling you that they have the answers and if you dont come to the same conclusions that you are wrong…isnt it hard to believe in anything at all? When belief is shoved on you its hard to not resent it.

The thing with belief is that it is NOT a science. There is no tangible way to measure it, prove it exists. It is simply an extension of the morals you have and the things you hope for not only for yourself, but for others.

It boggles my mind when people split hairs over belief.  People should support eachother and learn from eachother. These expierences will always impact and reinforce your beliefs.  Why people don’t do this and create differences between eachother is beyond me.

When you don’t support eachothers beliefs you are telling them they are wrong about certain fundamental things in their life. I couldn’t dream of doing that. I will always support what people believe in because of what I said earlier. It is better to believe in something than to believe in nothing.

Who Am i to tell someone that they are wrong? That single belief could have had countless impacts on their lives. Everyone should have that in their life.

I understand that it is in essence hard to share your beliefs because if someone disagree’s with them or has different conclusions, its a part of you they will never truly understand. BUT. If they love you as a person they will do their best to understand you and support anything you do. Isn’t that enough? We can’t pretend to completely understand people in our lives. Thats the wonderful thing about life. People surprise us, we see new dimensions to them. Always.

So what do I believe in? Several things

I believe in love. Love in the sense of embracing people for who they are. Loving them for who they are, not any fucked up expectation of what you think love is/should be.

I believe in destiny. Destiny puts us in places for us to take action and learn important lessons in our life. Destiny always has a plan and will always put us exactly where we need to be.

I believe in people.

I believe in myself

Yet…all my belief isn’t good enough is it? I can assume the best of people and myself and of love and of destiny…but people dont share the same beliefs as me. I should embrace that as long as they believe in something. But why can’t people at the least share a common belief that they should support each other? Regardless of belief system.

In short: I want to meet her. The girl who wont care what i believe in. Who will support me no matter what because we both believe in love. I’m tired of feeling like who i am and my beliefs aren’t good enough for people. It’s time for people to meet me halfway and show me my effort isn’t wasted.

The greatest lie we tell ourselves is

“Other people need to prove themselves to me”

In reality by truly believing that we are becoming victims of our past Sure people need to prove themselves trustworthy, loyal. This however is not a one way street. Is it fair to have one person be required to prove themselves while the other sits around and waits to be proven wrong?

Its a two way street. Everyone should constantly try to prove themselves to others.

Why?

If you can’t prove to someone else that you are worth their time. Why should they prove to you that you are worth theirs? What does that say about YOU if you feel so entitled to your defences. Sure you’ve been hurt in the past, but that doesn’t mean you should close your walls. 

It means you keep trying. You don’t give up until you find someone who will try just as god damn hard as you will to impress and prove themselves. It’ll hurt for sure, you’ll meet people who will reject you. But it will be so worth it.

A relationship is not a game of one person making all the sacrifices, of one person being exceptional to impress the other. It is a halfway meeting. Two people love drunk out of their minds that they do stupid ridiculous things for each other. 

The greatest problem with love is that people are so afraid to share their love because of fear of rejection. Fear of abandonment and hurt. You forget that there are people out there who love you for EXACTLY who you are. Who wont reject, abandon or hurt you. When you meet a person like this you treat them like everyone else and you reject one of the greatest things that could have ever happened to you.

That in itself is one of the most tragic of love stories the world will ever hear.

And all because you were too scared to take a leap of faith. To truly believe that something can work for you. Because you weren’t ready to let down your guard and make the same compromises that a relationship requires. You want the relationship with all your heart, but you can’t summon the courage to get there.

Its such a waste. So many beautiful people stuck in their shells.

Scumbag past me thinking Anth 201 would be fun to take.